Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Discovery

Today, let me talk more about myself.
[Laughs] as if it's interesting to talk about me.
Ah well, I'm sick and tired of writing wats happening in my life.
For now that is.. Since I'm loaded with my Presentation preparations.
So, now, let's take a walk down memory lane. [Laughs]
(Think that I'm a legend huh? Well....no..)

OK. Something about me. Hmm.....[thinking hard]
Got it! Ok, maybe it's nothing new to any of you.
I am very observant. I don't know why. But from where I got the syndrome was when I was in secondary school. See, back then, my class used to have a crush on our P.E teacher.
He was so tall and funny. haha.. So, whenever P.E lessons, I would always look at him like nobody's business. BUT! the class didn't know that I was actually staring at him!! I practically knew his timing! Like what time he usually comes to school, which class he's having P.E with, which class he teaches maths and stuff like that!! Yeah.. I was a stalker!! [laughs]
Kidding.. But i also know the rest of the teachers' timings!! Even the discipline masters wherabouts!! I mastered everything!!! yeah!!! So, I always escaped from the discipline master!! Never get caught!! Good huh?

Next incident was when I was in NUH, went for blood test. I was waiting for my turn. Then, this nurse kept asking patients to fill up a survey form. Although, it's only for a while. Then, aft my tests and all, it was my turn to pay. The same nurse was about to ask the same question, when I finished it for her. She then complimented me for being very observant.

I know, some of you might think, "Realli? I never see Rina be so observant" Well, that's because I give a sotong look! haha.. Pretend that I don't know, but actually I know a whole lots of things. OKOK..Right now, I have pist a lot of people for being such a big head. But actually, I do this is because so that I can know what kind of person I am. Like where I get all these bad habits from, or even I can change for the better.

So, NO OFFENCE TO ALL WHO HAVE READ THIS. I DIDN'T MEAN TO BE HARSH. IT'S ALL FOPR FUN, JOY AND LAUGHTER. SO, ENJOY.. !! PEACE!!

Monday, January 30, 2006

Went blog surfing again.
Went to blogs that I never thought would be updated.
Read on.
Felt Blank. Don't knw how to react to what's written.
NO Jealousy, Hatred, Happy, Sad, Overwhelmed.
Nothing of that sort.

Read about how the Angklung Juniors/Seniors in Macpherson is surviving.
Well, this is what I think. They are surviving on strong. Cool.
They had their CNY performance in sch. Cool.
I felt sad that they didn't call me. Never Mind.
I know the reason why. I'm an old bird to them.
To me, it seems that I've lost my Golden touch for Angklung.
[Laughs] Serious.

I lost contact to them for a while now.
Not because I'm lazy or anything. I'm just busy. Very Busy.
In fact, I have already done my job as a leader. They have a new leader to listen to.
Right now I'm just a no body to them.

I've had my glorious days before I joined ITE.
Now, I have to let other people to devour it.
I have what I wanted from Angklung. GOLD Award.
That's more than enough for me. [Smiles]

Hope they'll remember me because they are always on my mind everyday.
Now, the curtain closes before me. Stardom is over.

Turning back the hands of Time.

Aft reading Trish's Blog, it made me think of what happened in 2004.
I had a crush on this guy. We were Great frends. But untill one of his fren broke the news to him. I was devastated. Embarrassed. I wished that it never happened. Till a few days aft, he got a GF. Darn. We became far apart. We stopped talking to each other. haiz.. So, I wrote somthing for him. Hope it make sense.

Don't Say it's Wrong to Fall In Love

Friends we were before,
Strangers we are now;
Smiles and laughter we had,
Not even a greeting now.

Call me a fool,
Call me idiot.
But don't say it's wong to fall in love.

How could this happen?
Memories of us can no longer be forgotten
When wil your heart be open?
Before my heart will be broken.

Your denial is so clear,
If only my feelings you could hear,
Did you ever wonder?
keeping this silence is even harder.

Call me a fool
Call me idiot.
But don't say it's wrong to fall in love.

Seeing you with her is difficult
Questions I have are "If I could..."
If I could be your friend,
Talk to you again,
Pretend it all didn't happen and
Be the girl you adore.
Impossible now I guess.

However my heart you break,
Which ever pain the needles you prick,
For my feelings of you will never change.

Call me fool.
Call me idiot.
But don't say it's wrong to fall in love.

Friends used to say,
"He's not good enough for you!"
"He's not worthy for you!"
But I kept telling myself,
"I love you!"
"I will always love you!"

So many tears I've cried,
So many heartaches I endured.
I still love you.

Call me fool.
Call me idiot.
But don't ever say it's wrong to fall in love.

There....

Saturday, January 28, 2006

No Strings Attached! NEVER AGAIN..!!!

I came across this particular blog. Nice blogskin and all those graphics put in.
But the entries in it upsets me so. Felt like as tho' I'm a stranger to them.

In the entry I read, wrote a lot of bad things abt me & my family.
Saying that we're pretending to be little angels, but actually devil in disguise.
Also, saying that we don't know the pain that grams going thru' and all those stuffs.
In the entry also says that going down to her house just to show our faces ain't do any good.
In short, anger and fucked up feeling was written. It shows it all.

Well, U had your say. Now, it's my turn.
First of all, U & your family are going for a holiday.
U don't expect grams to look aft herself do you?! Since, she's been living with U for ages!
In your words U said, she's damn weak. So, since U love her so much, leaving her all alone at home, while U and your family enjoy the holiday. And U think that grams will be at her safest in your house ALL ALONE? Is this what U call showing her love?
Leaving her all alone at home!!! WAT?? Which part of showing her your love does that come from? I say NONE!!! In fact, you're KILLING HER FASTER!! Dumb ass!!

Next, I know the reason U are not happy with grams living here is because my house is DIRTY & MESSY. Plus, grams is so weak, that she walks slowly and she needs a lot of space to move around in a swivel chair. So, that makes U think that grams is suffering in my house because she can't move aruond that much at her own accord. Is that right?
Well, let me tell U this, who else in the family, who's not working? Who is in the house most of the time? Who? U can't expect the smaller bodied aunts to look after grams do you??
So, the ONLY person U can count on is none other than my MOTHER!!!! Geddit?? My mum is not working. She can look after grams 24/7!! In case U don't know or maybe U forget!!
Well, let me tell U this, altho' my house is messy, but it's SHOWERED with LOVE, WARMTH & COMFORT!! EVEN MY FRENS CAN FEEL LIKE HOME WHEN THEY'RE IN MY HOUSE!!
So, don't U go around telling ppl, how fucked up U r when grams is goin to live with me.
U will get your grams back, with all her limbs still attached when U & your family finished the holiday!! And when that time comes, U can shower grams will all your love, and let her tell U how she SUFFERED when living with me. Be such and doll for her will ya!!

Right now, I have no more respect for U aft all that U have said abt me & my family.
In fact, i dun EVEN want to know U ANYMORE!!! I respected U as my loved one..
And this is wat I get frm all tat shit?? Well, I'm washing my hands off U now.
From now on, NO SRTINGS ATTACHED!!

Friday, January 27, 2006

A perfect Day. Almost.

Woke up at 6:15am. If I delay any further, I might be late.
But this morning, it's different. I was fast. Got out of the house at 6:50am.
Once I got to the bus stop, 155 came. Cool. I wasn't rushing.
The bus sailed through smoothly to TPY.
I love the morning air brushing through my face. (Got a non air-con bus)

I reached TPY at 7:25am. Early. I felt good.
Reached Bishan at 7:30am. Darn early. [laughs]
Reached school so early untill there's time to put stuffs in the locker.

Had a 'meeting' in BZC. My group was the most fun. (For me that is.)
Shazana couldn't stop teasing Ms Lee during the meeting. [laughs]
Then, Ms lee drew valets for the sequence for the BZC CA presentation.
I was 3rd to present. Thanks ah.. I am not prepared!! Darn it!!
Guess I will be spending my Hols in front of the computer. Haiz...
During PR, Miss Tay was absent. Mr Foong came. Gave us some work to do.
It was a cramp lunch. Sha, Nurul and Vikki came and joined us. More fun!!

EVM, was when my day was spoilt.
Mrs Lee was in a bad mood.
All cause' we did our work incomplete.
So, instead of going back early, we got off on time.
Then, luckily, Trish and me went to watch The Pacifier at SH.
The movie was fun and sweet. It ended at around 4:45pm.
Went back home. Slept in the bus. I was so tired. Phew.
Got home at 5:59pm. Cool huh?

Well, I'm off now to do my presentation.
Wish me luck everyone!!!!

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Everything will be all right!

My mood was No Good in school this afternn.
Maybe because of Ms Lee who spoilt my mood.
She scolded me for passing up her a not well done work.
Watever.

This afternn, had lunch at J8 MacD.
Ordered Beef Fan-Tastic meal. Cost $6
One bite from it says it all. Sucks!!
It was ghastly!! Yuck!!
Rice buns were slimy. I mean real slimy. Un-appealing, if there's such a word.
The beef was ok. But still got part of the beef that's not tender.
So, chewing was a chore.
I felt so bloated in a bad way aft the meal.
I think I can pass the Chicken Fan-Tastic. Thank You.

Then, aft sch, me and Trish had LJS.
It's been ages since I had LJS.
The chicken and fries are to die for!!!
I indulged and enjoyed every bite of it!!
It's worth every single cents I paid.

American Idol on TV was ok.
Nothing too extravagant.

My mood is killing me.
But by tomoro, everything will be alright!

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Sentimental. Why? Don't ask.

I'm feeling as tho' there's somthing missing in my life.
I don't know what it is. Honest.
I don't feel 'right'.

I don't know how to explain it right.
Oh... I'm feeling kind of lethargic, aching everywhere.
It's pain. This kind of feeling is nothing new to me.
I experienced this quite a few times in life.
The remedy? Just think of happy moments. Yea. That'll do the trick.

However, I have this song stuck in my head since this afternoon.
I got the lyrics:
im so scared that u will see
all
the weakness inside of me
im so scared of letting go
that the pain i've hid will show

i know you want to hear me speak
but im afraid that if i start to
i'll never stop

chorus:
i want you to know
u belong in my life
i love the hope i see in your eyes
for you i would fly
at least i would try
for you i'll take
the last flight out

i'm afraid that you will leave
as my secrets have been revealed
in my dreams you'll always stay
every breathing moment from now

i know you want to hear me speak
but im afraid that if i start to
i'll never stop

chorus

i cannot hold back the truth no more
i let you wait too long (wait too long)
although its hard and scares me so
a life without you scares me more

scares me more
scares me more
scares me more
Don't ask me to why. I myself don't know.


Tuesday, January 24, 2006

3 Deadly Mistakes Made Today.

I have made the most Deadly Mistakes Ever!!![Shame...on you Rina...!!]

OK, to ALL who are reading this, I Hope U don't spread it ok?? Please...[Smiles]

Right, today I was late for school. In fact, I skipped the first lesson. KDS. The BESTEST lesson ever...!! yeah right. So, this was what basically happened. I got out from my house at 7. On the way to the bus stop, I realised that my card had only 30 cents!! How cool is that? The bus came at 7:15. Took another bus at Shell Macpherson. The bus came at 7:30. The funny thing was, I wasn't anxious about getting late. Why? Probably I have not waken up yet. Geddit? So, I made a decision to skip assembly and might as well KDS. I mean, I predicted that I will reach Bishan at 8. And by the time I reach the school gate, (God knows what time will that be..) So, might as well be late. There. I took my own Bloody Darn sweet time. Don't intend to rush. Trish and Zie were at Mac. Then, came Aini. (She got a new haircut. She looks like Kai Hoon. Hahah) We had b'fast at Mac. While eating, I felt kind of bad for playing truant. So, I have vowed to NEVER EVER EVER COME LATE FOR SCHOOL!!! 8:30, we headed for school.

The next Mistake I made was...I am supposed to top up this month's concession bus. My mum gave me $28. I was tempted to spend the money. [Rina, NEVER DO THAT AGAIN!!] Then, came an early lunch. I was starving. So, I thought, I might use only $2. But it turned out I used more than that!!! Now, I have $24!! Where on earth am I going to find another $3.50?? Argh!!! I hope that I will get my pocket money tomorro. Oh Dear... [Sigh] Right now, I have to keep the money secretly so that when my mum were ever happen to open my wallet, she might not find the money there and thinks that top up already. COol huh??
(PEOPLE, DO NOT LEARN THIS FROM ME!! IT'S BAD!! I REPEAT, NEVER LEARN THIS FROM ME!!! BAD RINA!!!)

The 3rd Mistake that I made was to lie to my mum. I mean, when I reached school, I told her that I was late. Then, when she asked me whether I was rushing for school, I said Yes. But actually I was heading to MacD. I am such a letdown. I can't lie to my mum. I feel so bad. Then, even if I were to lie to her, she somehow would find out and make me spill everything out to her. I just can't bear to lie to my mum. Maybe because I am trained not to lie from young. (Thanks Mum for all your guidiance. Love You!!)

So, yea, that's basically why I am feeling a bit under the radar at home now. Just to make sure that she doesn't find out. OK. Got to go now... My mum is baking Pineapple Tarts for CNY!!! Woohooo!!! Darn...!!! the atmosphere in my house smells like HARI RAYA!!! Woohoo!!!!

Monday, January 23, 2006

What Goes In. Goes Out. Dammit.

During the journey back home, my stomach gave me problems.
[I almost turned Green!!]
From the moment I set foot at home, to the loo I charged...!!! (Yep! You guessed it- diahoera)
BUT!! Do not be alarmed people... It's due to the medication I'm in again. Yeah. This medication, when taken, will give me bad bad tummy aches. I think I mentioned this before. So, people who went to Pastamania for lunch today, pls do not be alarmed.
(Just in case you're wondering, I went to the loo for a total of 5 times!! And now, My A** is painful!!!) hahha..sorry for the expletives!! [Suitable for viewers at from 14 onwards.]

After the Toilet Visiting Saga ended, I went to the Library. Spend quite a peaceful time there. However, I was mentally interrupted by this uncle in the library. You see, I was browsing my way through the shelves for books. Then, as I walked past this uncle, he stood up and.....Get this Right...he FARTED!!! For a whole 3 Seconds!!! YUCKS!!!!!!!!!!! Gross Beyond recognition Gross!!!! He basically scared the living daylight of the aunty who was sitting next to him. I, quickly went to other shelves for shelter from the German Gas. GAWD!! Doesn't he have the decency to at lease let it go in the toilet!! OH man...!!! Just by talking about it, irks me so!!! Blah!!

Back to more worth topic to talk about.

Aft sch, SK, Trish, Jess, Kelly, Sam, Edna, Ting Ha, Shi Ting and Kai Ying went to Pastamania for lunch. Trish and me had not much cash with us altho' it's the start of the week. [You all can call Me and Trish as the Most Pathetic People Ever. No Offence Trish.] We just didn't have enough cash with us. Hmph. Anyway, aft lunch, went walk2 around the ever-so-boring J8. Went to Popular, Sembawang Music Store and Mini Toons. The most Pornographic trip was at Mini Toons. I mean, as I entered the store, Sam called us to have a look at this soft toy/tissue holder. It was none other than a babe in bikini and guy in trunks. But, both had their [Whistle] protruding [as what Edna put it]. Yea. Go figure. The girl, with her N***les and the guy with his manhood. Yea. Awfull. I was so confused to why on earth Mini Toons are selling those things!!! Yuck!!! Then, SK took a very very obscene pic. Don't think I want to mention what. Eeww!!!

Today, I learned a new Short form. It's STFU. To me, I thought it was Shi Ting F*** U. But I was so wrong.... She said it means Shut The F*** Up! WOW!!!! Hmm... Interesting!!!! Cool!!!
hahah [Shi Ting, No Offence. It's all for Fun Joy and laughter. hahah] Ok, till then...RSO.
[Rina Signing Off. Hahah Oh Boy!!!]

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Cash Flow Problem. Who to Blame?

The weather today was fine. Sunny, windy and occasional rain. [Thinking]
[Smiles to ownself] I realised that in my entries, I always talked abt the weather.
Sunny. Windy. Rainy. Storm. Hot. I sound like a "Weather Girl". [laughs]
No...Don't worry, being the weather girl will not be my future career.
Reason why I'm so concern about the weather is because it always reminds me of moments in my life. Be in Sad, Happy, Excited, Scared and even Angry. [Smiles]

Anyway, forget abt the weather. This afternn, while I was cleaning my shoes, my mum flared up about my brother. He's kind of a 'Big Spender'. From Adidas shoes to Giordano boxers.
He buys them. The latest item he bought was a black sweater. Don't know for what. Like as if Singapore is ever going to Snow.
Then, my mum said that she just deposited some money in his POSB account. Right now, she found out that the money almost dried up. That made my mum so mad. I mean, she has all the right in the world to get mad because right now, my dad is not working. So, it seems that money keeps spending, but no income is brought into the household. Yet, my mum is trying her best to save the money but, my brother just keep spending it like water.

Look, it's not that I am condeming my brother. It's just that he has to consider to which is important to him. I mean, the money under his account are for his University Tuition Fee. (F.Y.I - It's not that CHEAP OK!!) Plus, the money is also courtesy from the Muslim Trust Fund that my mum applied and he got the scholarship. It's not an easy task to earn that scholarship. But thank God that he got it. But you see, my brother is spending the money as if there's no tomorro. OK, maybe I'm exagerating, but it's true. I so understand my mum's feelings.

Right now, I'm in my brother's room. All I can see are; T-shirts from Robinsons, Sweater from Giordano, Speedo Swimming Trunks, Goggles, Siglets from Hang Ten and Piles of T-shirts!! Man....!!! My brother is a Gold Digger!!! [laughs!!!!!] Kidding... But seriously, I hope that my brother doesn't keep up with this bad habit. If my mum were to say everything to him, he will get angry and thus make my mum more disappointed. So, who to blame?? My brother? For spending? My Dad? For not being able to get a job? My mum? For being too naggy? Me? For blame me?? I ain't do nothing!!! hahah!!! Take this time to ponder and change. Hmm....Speaking of change, I have yet to clean my EVERY-SO-MESSY BEDROOM!!! Better get down to it fast, before my mum scold me for nothing!!! Chiaoz!!!!

Friday, January 20, 2006

I was almost got screwed.

I had to report to sch @ 0730hrs to carry class signs for the newbies.
But I met my frends at around 0700hrs. Guess what time I reached Bishan?
0645hrs!!! LOL!! I know, it was crazy. I got out from my hse at around 0600hrs.
I decided to take number 8 from Macpherson estate, (shorter route to TPY).
The bus came and I didn't expect to reach so FAST!! So, I was quite thrilled abt it.
Then, I asked my frends to meet at MacD, while I had my B'fast. (My Stomach was killing me!!)
So, while waiting, I had Sausage McMuffin with Tea and I read the morning paper.
Such a classic thing to do in the morning. Hahah..

When we're in sch, there was a concert. It is to celebrate all the 3 recent Festivals: Hari Raya Haji, Ponggal & CNY. How Budget can that be. A 3-in-1 concert. Blah.
We had goodies, courtesy from Mrs Angie Lee. It was an OK concert. But Trish, Zie and me had loads of fun!!! Guess what?!! The old folks were invited!!! HAHAHA!!! It was quite sweet of the sch to do that. Aft concert, Lessons as per normal. How enlightening that news was. Blah. Aft BZC, Grace handed up Reply Letter of Enquiry to Ms Lee. I was just merely walking past her. Then, she pointed out, "Oh Ya!! My bridge leaders. I want your homework" I was like OH SHIT!! Thanks Grace!!! I quickly tip toed out of the class. LOL... That was a close encounter. Phew.

During PR, I was driven back to my nostalgic primary sch days. Those days, where we only had to do was drawing and colouring. Yeah. Miss Tay made us do a mind-map in our creative way. The topic was "7 ways of planning a PR Campaign" How Fun it was!!! All the colour pens and highlighters started to come out. HAHah I felt like I was in Hi-5 show!! Hilarious!!

EVM period was even more tragic. We had to discuss abt how to make a Press Release. I am at blur zone when comes to EVM. The topic is interesting, but the teacher is really cannot make it, but somehow she made it through the years...!!! Torture!!!! Then, it was time to go, so ISF students self-proclaimed early dismissal. HAHAH!!! Almost half of the class just merrily strolled out of the class. I wanted to do that, when Mrs Lee said, "Who ask you to go?!" I quickly make my way back in. Oops!!! But in 5 mins time, she eventually released us. Thanks a lot!!!

Then, me, Grace, Trish, Sam and Kelly went to SH to Finish watching Mona Lisa Smile.
(We watched Disc 2 a total of 3 times!! We even know the dialogue!! LOLOLO!!!)
Aft that, it rained and stopped and rained again. We went back home. But, we had a stop over at MacD for ice-cream on a cold day. Right. But we had fun!!! There was this Indian family who were staring at us. So I told Trish & kelly. They both turned to look at the family AT THE SAME TIME!!! Imagine that!! It's as if they were watchin a F1 race!!! LOL!!! It happened again when I saw this Caucasian guy. Same thing. WATCHING A F1 RACE!!! ZZzzoommmmmm!!!! LOL!!! Lastly, I am PARTIALLY HAVE A HEARING PROBLEM whereby I heard Trish said this, "She has damn bloody long legs la!!" guess what I heard?? "chickydondeng!!" AGRH!!! Blah...blah!!! LOL!!! The 3 of us cracked until our face turned red!!! WOOhoo!!! Chickydondeng!!! What the Hell!!!! Like AD would always say, "Rina, balik ambil senduk, korek telinga k!!!" [Translation: Rina, go home, take a big spoon, and dig your ears!!] HAHaha!!! TOOTHELOO!!!!

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Orientation Day.

I'm back. Tired. Even this very moment.
First of all, I just finished watching American Idol. Funny. Enchanting.
I'm really jealous for those who made it to Hollywood. Their voices I mean.
But the only contestant that caught my eye was this guy name David Redford.
Hope I got it correct. Yea. He was the one who sang Summer Wind By Dean Martin.
I was taken away by him. He has those dreamy eyes...cute. I mean not too handsome, and not too ugly. Just the right kind of tenderness. OK. I am so blabbing over him. haha.. Ok, he's cute.

Right, back to business. Orientation Day.
For me, TIRING. TIRING. AND SHITTY BEHAVIOUR!!
Lemme start with Day 1. I performed. The mic was obviously berserk. The music was too soft. I entered the song too early. But I got back on track. On the high notes, I tried my best! I nailed it!! Woohoo!!! My classmates were screaming for me. Including ALL the BRIDGE LEADERS!! Thanks You Guys!! Appreciate it loads!!!
Then, aft that, the Treasure Hunt was a mess. Don't know what happened. Aft the whole day, got a good scolding from AD and Kevin. I knew that was coming from the look on their faces. Bad. I warned some of my Games Com Members. They knew it too. In the CCA Room, it was all let out. I felt like Screaming to Kevin for making accusations abt this years Orientation. He told us that it was the MOST LOUSIEST ever. I couldn't take it no more. I've had enough. But I am at no position to say anything. As usual, I kept it to myself. Aft all the scolding, all I wanted was just to go home. Go home to my mom. I felt so much better when I reached home. Comfort was filled within me.

Day 2. Was THE MOST RUNNING AROUND, BONE BREAKING, PAIN IN THE ASS, HOTTEST WEATHER, HEAVIEST DOWNPOUR, MOST EMOTIONAL DAY EVER!!! There. In the morning, I ran for the bus 155. I die die wanted to get the bus so that I can sleep in the journey. Second, I was kind of early. Then, when all my frens came, AD msg me to get her $12 for taxi fare. She was runnin late. When I was on my way to sch, a few taxis were driving in and out. I was so naive to believe that AD had arrived. So, I practically chased aft all the taxis. But AD was not in any of the taxis. It turned out that I had to wait for her outside the gate. Dammit. thanks ah! Then, AD appointed Siti and me to make sure that all equipment for the telematch and sports were ready. I was so nervous. I want to make sure everything goes fine. Then, Kevin, as usual, the pain in the ass, told me to get extra equipments!! Double job for Siti and me. Everything was fine when AD asked me for the strips of trashbag for the sports. I forgot abt that. AD gave me "that look". I was screwed and angry. Although they asked me to eat, but I didn't. My appetide was gone. Setting up the telematch stations was suicidal. 1 ping pong ball was missing. Both Kevin and AD gave me "that look". I hate it so much. I had no mood to play already. The feelin is worse than having menses. Aft the telematch, I was left alone with Aini to refill the stations. Imagine, 10 stations to clear. 9 stations to set up. 5 ping pong balls went missing. Until when I was carrying 2 pails of water down to the field, I fell down hard on my ass. It hurts so bad. I got teased by strangers. I was so fed up, I told Kevin to get help from the seniors. Once the seniors arrived, I explained quickly. Then, Ada, Mel and Daphne came late. I explained again. But once they heard that they need to carry pails of water, they complained among themselves. Though that I didn't hear. Well they were wrong. I hate them loads!!! I mean, all they did the whole day was sitting around like a bunch of whores waiting outside a strip club to get a ride home. ARGH!!! I HATE THEM!!!!! DARN BITCHES!!!!
The most hated part was when the stations were set up, it started to rain. Double ARGH!!!! Nvm. Then came the prize giving. Then, Ada and Maisarah were "debating" over what time to come tomorro. Ada and Mai were talking at the same time, same thing!! I was so pist I shouted "OI!!! WHY MUST 2 PERSON TALK AT THE SAME TIME??!! STUPID IS IT!!!" Ada turned around and looked at me. I stared at her back. No mercy shown. Aft that, was the most emotional part. Back in the CCA room, Sam gave token of appreciations to AD and Kevin. Both were speechless. Especially AD. And I can't keep my mouth shut. I kept cracking jokes and teased AD. heheh...Then,AD told abt ther life story. Then, some touching words that made me wanna cry. I kept my cool. When I looked up, I saw most of them with wet eyes. Amazin. Amazin on how I was the one who did not shed a tear. Souless? Me? Nah... Just kept my cool. It was a encore for me. AD told me everything before. So no sweat. But it was quite sad to see others cried. Aft, that, time to say farewell.

It's been a hell of a roller coaster ride working with AD and the rest. It was educational. LOL!!! Went to eat at MacD. I fell asleep while eating my lollipop!! Thank God I did not choke!! If not, I am History!!! LOL!!! Tired NOw!!!!Phew!!!!

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Sunny Sunshine.

This morning, I was awaken by the sun rays from the sky.
Finally, the sky is clear. It has been awhile since I've seen it.
Went to Religious Class. I reached there @ 9:45 am. Class starts at 9am.
[I'm always late!! Although the mosque is not more than 3km away.] :P
It's OK to be late then not to turn up! But, to my surprise, the class has not even started!!!
My frends were chattin away. Today is the Girls Domination Day. There were only 3 boys in class. It's always the girls who will dominate the class. Hahah.. (Where have all the Guys gone?)
Class starts at 10!! Ended at 10:30!! How cool is that!!! But it was boring tho'. Coz the teacher is bloody darn B-O-R-I-N-G!!!

Aft class, went to buy some food frm the mosque. Got 2 Roti John and Hasbrowns for $1.60.
Cool huh? Then, eat while walking. Right now, I'm so darn bored!!! But I'm listening to Salsa music frm Batanga Radio Station frm Windows Media Player. This is keeping me alive and all juggly. Hehehe... I love Cuban Music!!! But ltr on, going out with my mum. Where?? None other than TOA PAYOH!! Ai yo yo!!!! I am getting sick of TPY. Maybe becoz, I pass the bloody darn place literally everyday!!!! So, maybe I just explore the place WAY too fast!!! HAHAH... So, ya..till then Adios Amigos I berambus!!!! {Translation: I berambus means I'm off!!!]

Friday, January 13, 2006

Bad Day. Very Bad.

I'm feeling so damn tired. Body aching all over. Eeoouch..!!
Had BL Training. I screwed up so bad!!!
In the Telematch, I was S'pose to set up the stns. I did it. With much confusion.
Then, during the race, I was S'pose to make sure that they put the bottle on the head.
When Ad (In charge) reminded me, I mistaken it as to Sabo More. Damn.
Sorry everyone. :p I felt bad abt it tho'.

This is wat I'm always scared of. Screwing up.
I feel bad. But I know, screwing up is part and parcel of the learning journey.
But it makes me feel so damn screwed becoz, it's like telling ppl that I can't be trusted/depend on. That's how I look at it. So, my mood was at ground zero for the rest of the day. When this happens, I tend to Zone out. Stare into space.

My mood was even more depressing was when I found out that I have to reahearse my singing. Then, Mel (Primadonna/Filthy Rich B**ch) have not yet given me the song Sway PCD version. I was so nervous and didn't know wat to do. That made me so mad that I decided not to perform at all. But I kept my cool and tried to go with the flow. Went to the Auditorium, saw Mel. She didn't even say ANYTHING about our duet. I flared up even more. I just keep quiet. I was abt to scream at Mel.

Finally, Ada (Last minute worker) called me for rehearsal. This was my chance to burst at her. When I got down, I quarelled with her on my agreement with Mel dueting. Ada simply said "Oh, she don't want to sing anymore!" I was F***ed up with that. I told her "Then Mel didn't even bother to at least tell me!!! Then, Ada tried pleaded me to sing. At first, I realli didn't want to sing becoz I didn't practice!! But I just sang. True enuff, I sound like a Frog!!! Fine. Aft the song, the teachers were there to give me feedback. They said I shouldn't sing that song. They said sing something that I'm confortable with. The only song that was in my head was "When You Believe". I realli want to sing it becoz Rehan asked me to. So, I got it. I sang again. This time, I was more relaxed, but still angry. So, in the song when, the high notes came, I realli gave it my all. I knew that my face turned red when I hit the note. But heck, I felt much better after screaming. While I was singing, my group members, were supporting me. I felt touched. Even when they were walking they still have time to support me. Thanks Trish, Sam, Shuo Ke and the rest of group 1.

Aft singing, the teachers told me again and again to sing that song. I was like "Yea sure!!" Then, one of the teacher said that I sang with much Feeling. WOw. ahahah.... Thanks...Then, I went to play games with my grp. Fun.

But aft that, I was so exhausted!!!! I was barely dragging myself. Went to KFC to eat. I almost slept on my food. My whole body started to ache. ouch...

HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!!!!!

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Rained.Rain.Raining.Will be Raining.

The weather was not Good At All!!
It has been raining eversince yesterday night.
This morning, it has not stop raining. Non-stop.
How sad can life be right?

Plus, today, Ad called for a meeting abt this Fri.
It ended up that Ad and Khadijah came.
The rest can't make it.
When they reached my house, it was raining. Like Duh.
Then, we started discussing about the plan.
It seems that we are given more workload. No doubt.
We laughed a lot, talked crap a lot and laughed loads more.
Ad kept teasing Khadijah on her fractured toe. Hehe..
Should have seen the way Khadijah reacted. Hilarious.

Then, my mum served them Late Lunch! Haha.. sorry.
Then, Ad realised that Khadijah ate fish bones but scared of cats!!
Ad then, came out with a name for her. "Khat" (a.k.a "Cat" Geddit?)
So, she also wants to make fun of her on Orientation Day. Haha..
Trish, you got yourself a follower. Haha ... Kidding. =P
We had loads of fun. But the rained had its fun too!!
Pouring non-stop. Thanks Rain!!

In the end, they stayed untill 8pm!!
Aft the meeting, was when Ad gave no mercy to Ijah (Khadijah).
She disturbed her fractured toe.
Untill Ijah would do anything to please Ad.
Ijah event begged for forgiveness!!! Hahah....All in the name of fun.
And to kill time too!!
All in all, I had great fun with them. Apart from laughing my ass off,
I learned a great deal on Ad's Life. She is an eye-opener for me.
She showed us her Project Presentation. It was very touching.
I really respect Ad so much. She is such a Strong person.

And until now, as I am writing this, it hasn't stop raining.
How cool is that?!! Damn. I have not learn any shit for my CA.
Dammit.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Workload.

Just came back frm Geylang Market. Tired.
Weather is cloudy. Raining later perhaps.
I was just blog surfing. Some good ones. Some, didn't update.
I was mostly attracted to SK blog. The Shemale danced. Hahha.
It was a clsoe-up pic! Very intriguing. Check it out!!

Aft blogging, I will have to work non-stop.
Why? I have tonnes of tings to do. Example:
  1. CA Presentation.
  2. Study PR for CA on 12 Jan. (Chpt: 1,2 &3)
  3. Worry abt the up coming Orientation Games.
  4. Worry abt the singing with Mel. (Action Primadonna)
  5. Pray that I would get thru' all this without any distractions.
I hope that I'm able to do all these.
Plus, the weather is realli not helping me.
In fact, its actually making me sleepy.
Not helping weather!!! Do something.

Carry on...and Make it work...! -Project Runway-

Friday, January 06, 2006

Training Day.

It was Training Day for all Bridge Leaders. Reporting time was 7:45am.
I was both excited and nervous. Me being the I/C was even more challenging.
Luckily, my members are the 3 MOST WONDERFUL ANGELS; Trishma, Samantha & Shuo Ke.
I hope that I as the Leader did not hurt their feelings. If I did, I'm Sorry.
Evrything was going on fine when my members went to start the games.

In my group, there were quite a number of Indian girls.
But there were this 2 Distinct girls that TURNED ME AND MY MEMBERS OFF.
I don't know her name. They were not co-operative AT ALL!!
All her excuse was "I have been in this sch longer than you!"
Ya, watever.

Then, Ad (Games I/C) came to my grp to supervise.
I was embarrassed and disappointed in myself as I wasn't able to energize the grp.
I am such a letdown. I know I can do better than today.
It's becoz of the girls that Pissed me off. Argh!!!
Everything was ruined. I hate it!!

When everything was done, it was time for rehearsal for the performance.
I am involve. Singing. Sway by Michael Buble.
I love the song. But my voice is killing me.
Plus, the music was so soft. I can't barely hear my voice.
I am so worried. I will not embarrass myself on the real day.
I hope that I can sing flawlessly by 16th jan (Orientation Day).
Wish me luck!!!

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Marathon Sneezing

Has anyone ever experience this before?
A false alarm Sneeze?
I mean it's like you feel like sneezing, but it never came?
Then you will feel and itch in your nose?
Then, when you will experience a Sneezing Marathon!! Non-stop Sneezing!
Yea. That kind of feeling? ever felt that before?

Well, I am. Sneezing non-stop since 9:30 pm.
Still having the ticklish feeling in my nose.
My left right nostril. Itch!
AAAAHHHCHHHOOO....!!!!

Oh Help me. Argh!!
Plus the weather is so damn cold.
[Sneeze]
I had BL meeting 4 Games.
Fun. Fun. Fun.
But hate the Seniors. Exluding Maisarah.
I dun wish to mention names.
So, yah. It's like 3 different ppl, telling 3 different Stories.
It's so damn F*****g shit!!
I seriously hate to deal or even listen to this kind of shit.
I mean, isn't there any on particular LEADER who know EVERYTHING??
Then, what's the point of having a President, Vice-President and Secretary...!!!
This all is so damn Bloody Bul*S**T!!!
[Sneeze! Sneeze!]

Just see how and what happens tomoro!!
Till then....[Sneeze!] See Ya!!! [Sneeze!! Sneeze!!]

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

I'm back.

I'm back. Just to kill time. No.
Actually waiting for Trish to send me her hw.
Help Her Print. hahaha..

At 2 pm
, we had a talk about Presentation Skills/Public Speaking.
Boring. Had it during my Sec Sch days. haiz...
But the 2nd speaker; Patrick (From: Bikini Bottom) was hilarious.
He admitted tat he has a Spotlight. (He's bald.) So, that explains it all.

Aft t
he talk, went home. No.
Actually, went to J8 to wander around.
Found out tat the shop infront of KFC sells the same bag tat I bought. With Longer Strap!!
Dammit. PLUS, IT COST THE SAME!!! ARGH!!! IS THIS RETRIBUTION OR WAT?!!!

Hahah...This is my 1st Pic...LOL Lame....

Sardine Curry??

This is the first time I encountered this.
At home, when I was taking my portions for dinner.
I was turned off by what my mum cooked.
Fish curry was what I thought. I hate fish.
For the fact that I had bad experiences with fish.
(Many fish bones got stuck in my throat!! Yuck!!)
But then...........when I was stirring the curry, it turns out to be Sardines!!!
Yeah!! My Favourite!!! First time seeing a Sardine Curry!! Cooked by my mum.
So, I indulged on my early dinner!! Burp! Burp!

Right now, I am listening to the song "Blind" By Lifehouse.
It's so nice!!! It's so very touching. especially the Intro and verse 1.
So sad... Hai....

I have achieved a world record for me.
As I know and the whole world know that I hate running.
So today for S&W, I ran 1 round without stopping!! Cool!!!
I've never be able to achieve it!! WOW!!! Trish and I did it together!!!
Woohooo!!!!

But however, I am very sick today. I have sore/itchy throat.
Whenever I coughed to ease the itch, I would feel as if I was going to vomit.
My throat itch untill now as I am writing this. Cough! cough!
I was caught in the rain again!!! Dammit. Confirm will get sick.
(I opened the umbrella to late. Dammit.)