What is Help?
Have you ever asked for help from other people?
Of course you have.
Like for instance, asking your friend to inform the teacher that you are sick.
Or you helping your friend when she's busy.
Perhaps just asking he/she to buy you something.
Help. You share the workload with the other person.
Help them out of free will and with no intention of a reward.
That's what help mean to me. Don't know about you people.
Anyway, I am most dislike and disgust is when people say this:
"I rather do this task my own." That just turns me off.
I mean, if someone is having a lot of tasks to do when they can actually get help from their friends, why don't they just say so?
You want help, ask. Don't think that you can handle it on your own. That's utter bullshit.
Look, if a certain task is divided among a few people, the result:
- The task is done faster.
- Shed a few loads of your shoulder.
- Less things to worry about.
- Can get on with Life more peacefully.
Yeah. So asking for help is not that dangerous. All you need is ask properly, explain the instruction correctly and trust the person whom you aske for help.
These excuses really turns me off:
- I can do this on my own.
- I don't think I need help.
- I don't like to bother other people.
- I rather do this on my own.
For those who have been asked for help, do it properly. Don't expect a reward from it.
Your status will not drop if you help even the slightest thing. You will not be humiliated.
In fact, you will be remembered for the help you have given. You will be trusted. People will like your honesty.
But as for me, throughout my whole life, I have help people who are closest to me and to strangers. I felt good helping people. However, asm I grew older, my help has been treated lightly. Not even a thank you or a smile back. That's basic courtesy. Don't tell me people this generation have forgotten how to be polite? GOD! what is happening to this world. hai..
Ponder about this.
This is not directed to anyone. But if you feel the sting, well, all I can say is, Take it with a pinch of salt and change for the better.
What to Blog? I forgot! Shit!
I just forgot what to blog.
A few seconds ago, I had it in my head.
But now, it's gone. All gone. Dammit. Nvm.
Life now for me is hectic and painful.
Painful in a way that it's too hectic.
Geddit? Hahah.. I know, lame..
But seriously, it's painful because its the amount of workload need to juggle.
The deadlines are so close.
But thank God that I am done with my BZC CA.
If not, I will have no time for bloggin.
I will just stick myself to the comp screen and finish up my work.
However, as I am writing this, my eyes are so heavy.
All it need is to close and sleep!!
I need sleep!!! Loads of it!!!! hahaha
But I have tonnes of work to get done.
So, this is it for now.
I can kiss Idol Goodbye.
Tomorrow will be the auditions for Singapore Idol at HDB Hub.
I saw the barriers long the stretch of HDB Hub. I wish I could join..
But too late.. hai.. Never mind.. wait for next few years maybe. hahah..
Singing is my passion. I like singing. I can't stop singing. hahah..
I don't know how it got me started. But it has been in me for so long.
When I sing, I feel so good. I don't know why. I dare not say that singing is my talent.
Because, I know there are other people who sing way better than me. That's for sure.
Every morning, the first thing that come up to my mind is singing.
Really. NO kidding. All I want to do is sing and sing.
I wish that one day I would be in Singapore Idol.
hahah.. I know, wishing is just the starting point. But actually doing it, is a big step.
hahaha.. I know, lame.. hahaha...
Shows On TV. Boring.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but I realised that the programmes shown on TV are so darn boring!!
It's true! Why? Because, it's been ages since I can get a decent 1 hour of TV show. Even if I get to watch, the shows are death defying boring! Is either the dramas are repeated for the millionth time, or the draggy reality shows that are getting lamer and lamer. I don't know. It's just killing me.
I rather watch Arts Central than Ch 5. No offence to all Ch5 addicts. haha. No intentions directed at you all. OR maybe, recently, I am loaded with tonnes and tonnes of work which their deadlines are so close! That's why, you won't see me on MSN that often. hehe..
So far, the only fun show to watch is American Idol, Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy. These are my favourites!! I have to watch them to make my day and week. Haha.. American being a reality show, I still like to watch because singing is my oxygen! hhaah...Exagerrating I know.. But it's true. You can never find me not singin for one day! Unless I have a bad throat of course. hahah.. If ever my singing is so ghastly, I apologise.
Desperate Housewives is a show that I luurrvveeee to watch because Bree Van De Kamp (Marcis Cross) is in it! She is the one with orange hair and she is the erfect wife!! yeah. I am so amazed to her for being so compose all the time. Also, I like to see the houses in the show. It's so colourful and cheerful and also spacious. Maybe it's just a set, but hey, I am a very optimistic person. Can't blame me on that.
Grey's Anatomy is one show that I like because it involves a lot of drama and humour that needs deeper thinking. I like the way, when the hospital is so busy and yet, the inturns stil have time to have affairs! hahah... Also, it has good lessons to be learnt from it. Some of it are, Kindness, Patience when dealing with difficult people and how to deal with a Nazi Boss!! hahaha... It's good yet thrilling!
Go watch these shows. It's cool and feisty. hahaha.. Kidding....
A tragic dream..But sweet.
I am blogginh in school now..Reason being, lesson now is very boring.. Like duh..Anyway, I had nothing to do, so decide to blog. I had a dream this morning before goinjg to school.The dream was about this person that I used to like. haha..To Trish, I think U know who. Hahah..It started when I was going to NYP to present my project. Then, when I was at NYP, he called me. He asked me to meet him at the auditorium. Reason being, it's been a long time since he saw me.I was desperately wanted to see him at once. But I have to present my project immediately. I asked him to meet later after my presentation. But he was pleading me. He was so sweet with his words.I felt so bad for not being able to meet him. I wanted to cry!! ARGH!!! Then, when I said that I really cannot meet him, He went silent over the phone. I tried comforting him, but he still kept quiet.I felt very very bad!!! ARGH!!!Then<<<<<<<<
<<<<I was woken up by my mum's voice!! "Rina!!! U better wake UP!! No need to go school is it???!!!"ARGH!!!!!!! Damn!!! I can't continue the dream!!!How sad!!!!It's the first time I dreamt of him!! In fact, it's been a long time since I've heard from him.I miss him. So much. But he doesn't know that. Hai....Life is so sad...especially when we are far apart...
Typical Human Behaviour.
One week passed, yet there's no entry. Sorry for that. Hahah
Nevermind about my life for awhile. Let's ponder into everyday situation.
Yes. I will be talking about the finest God's creation. Yup.
Human Beings and their indescribable behaviour.
Before that, have you ever wonder why some of the minority of the population (esp S'poreans)
have very weird and irritating personality? Let me give you one example. It happened to me.
Ok. Last weekend, I was in the bus on my way to TPY. When I was at Macpherson estate, there was this passenger who sat behind me. Then, as the bus approaced Mount Vernon, he scared the living daylight of me by coughing! His coughed was piercing to my eardrums. Fine. Maybe it was just an accident. But no... he coughed and coughed and coughed and coughed and coughed and scared me and irritated me so bad that I wanted to turn to him and shout to him. There. That's how irritating her was! He coughed as if his phlegm was made of clay! and also, he was coughing as though he wanted to spit out his tonsils!! Dam!!! I was badly interrupted by him! Even when I was listening to my discman. UGH!! Throughout the entire journey I was piping with rage!!!
Look, it's not that I am a clean freak or anything. It's just that can't he just cough at a lower tone? Or maybe cover his mouth with his handkerchief of tissue? He just cover with his hands. Gross. Then, the cough was so irritating that it's only a short cough, that kind whereby he was just merely clearing his throat cough. It's not even categorised as a cough. HAI!!! I think that's the most rudest thing to do. To irritate other people with an irritation in the throat. Ugh!
Next incident whereby, I was on the escalator going down. It was quite early in the morning and the atmosphere was still serene and peaceful. But then came the loud clacking of heels behind me. It turned out to be women wearing those heeled slippers. She was going down the escalator steps!! It was so damn loud!! The sound that they make, puts an impression on me where a big fat hippo is comming down the stairs with heels. Yeah. But when actually it was a tiny hourglass figure woman.
Look, I was in Angklung in my secondary school years. I ever performed at the Esplanade and it requires silent movement from the performers. SO, I was wearing the sandals and was walkin and climbing up and down on marbled flooring. The whole group of 60 over people (mostly girls) were able to walk without any sound. NOt the usual Loud Clacking sound. How did we do that? Easy. Control it!! Don't relax your legs!! C'mon la, if I, an overly-sized girl, can walk without any sound, I don't think the normal sized people can't!! Plus! When on that occasion, I had a bad bruise on my knees!! And I didn't complaint! I managed to keep my heels quiet.
So, what's the moral of the story? Especially to S'poreans. It means, we have to control and be aware of the sounds that we make in public! Sometimes, it can be irritating and might pist people out! People have to start to have more understanding when in public! Only then, everyone will have a wonderful journey ahead of them. This is very typical Human Behaviour!! What can we do to change it?
Flattened. Why Bother.
A thousand apologies for not Blogging.
Due to some reasons that will not be mention.
Today, had S&W to assit the new intake to some Games.
It was boring. I was with Grace. Haha.
We played Dog & Bone. The Bone was Grace's Nike Woman Deodrant.
Grace like to call it Dear Dora. hahah. No offence Grace. I still luv ya!
So, after a few rounds of the game. The Class were getting restless.
So, I just allowed them to play ball games.
I went to play Captain's Ball. The Chinese Gals were so timid to play.
They were practically allowing the malay gurls to score! Ugh!
So, I couldn't take it anymore, I joined them.
Guess wat happened? I slipped onto a sliperry part of the court and fell down.
FLAT on the GROUND! All of my Skirt and T-shirt was all covered with soiled water
plus some other black substance. EEww!!!
I made such a din. What's even more worse was the fact that the seniors were there!!!
How Humiliating to the core it was. DARN it! So, I washed up.
Right now, I am starting to feel the aching on my joints.
I think when I fell, the most impact were on my joints.
Risks. Are they worth it?
I am sure at certain points in our Life, we take risks.
Be it for ourselves or even for our loved ones.
Risk. Like a bomb expert trying to disarmed a bomb.
Trying to figure out which wire to cut. Is it Red, Blue or Green wire.
If the outcome is positive, then the risk which was done was worth risking for.
However, Life is not always positive. There's always a bad side of things.
Call it the Ying and Yang of Life. The Good and the Bad. The Angel and The Devil.
If we take risks, and it turns out to be a negative thing, who do we blame?
Ourselves? For being stupid enough to make such decision? Or blame Life for being so unfair?
Even if we get the chance to blame Life, what will we get out of it? Nothing I guess.
People always say, Live Life To The Fullest. What do they really mean? How on earth can we live to the fullest when actually in reality, there's always the intruder. We can't avoid it.
I have taken many risks. Some had great outcomes. While some others just didn't work.
But I have been taking this risks for as long as I can remember. The risk of going out and see people staring at me because I'm Fat. Yeah. Where ever I go, people will give me the look. Some even uttered the word Fat. I know that I am Fat. But do they really have to say it in front of my face? Well, what if I'm the one who say something bad about them right smack in the middle of their faces? Will they like it? No right? how stupid can they be.
Well. I just don't give a damn about these people. All thanks to them, I'm like this. This is one of the risk that is not worth taking it.
I'm Stressed.
I went to watch Chingay today.
It was fun!! Tell You more about it in my next entry.
Today, I had my CA Presentation for BZC.
I shivered. Obviously. I didn't practice. How unpro that was huh?
But thankfully I passed. Phew!!
Ms Lee told me that I am more of a presenter.
Meaning, I am better thin Public Speaking, than written english.
Geddit? I can't write good english. At all.
Cool.
Had a BL meeting this aftrnn.
The Preseident announced that there will be a camp on 3rd March.
He announced the Camp Comm.
I am in it. Damn it! I hate it!!
I seriously hate it. I don't want to be in any Committee.
I just want to serve my CCA and be over and done with.
ARGH!!! I'm so stressed!!! I hate it!!! I hate it!! I hate it!!!!!
DAMMIT!!! I don't know what to do!! I hate commitments.
Yeah, that's another quality of me. I hate to commit myself into something.
Especially when I'm under pressure and also WHEN I"M NOT INTERESTED IN THAT PARTICULAR THING/EVENT WHAT SO EVER. NEVER PUSH ME WHEN I DON'T LIKE IT. BECAUSE YOU WILL NOT LIKE THE RESULTS THAT I PRODUCE. YEAH. REMEMBER THAT!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!! SORRY. I JUST HAD TO MAKE THING CLEAR AND STRAIGHT.
