Hey there, back again. Perhaps nobody is reading my blog as I don't update it frequently like a true believer. So, here's something for the record.
Early this week went swiftly, everything went out OK nothing too dramatic, but when comes mid week, disaster struck! Remember the 'F'? Yeah. F suck on my blood again!!! UGH!!! I feel like punching, pulling, and put F in the blender and blend F till there's nothing left of F. Yeah! I want F to go away SO BAD! I dun want to talk about it as it will make me mad all over again!!! UGH!!! DIE F DIE!!!
However, I have calm myself down and did some cheering up with the help of a movie and a little time alone. Ahh..I feel better now. I shall not spoil my start of the weekend. No way!!
With the chilly weather with me, I guess I will do just fine for the weekend. Ha! I know, it looks like I have no social life beyond my school life. Well, you're wrong. I do have a life. I do go out and let loose. Not extremely loose and wild. Haha!!
Happy WEEKEND!!
Almost a month ago was my last entry. WOW! That was ages ago! Haha!! I'm packed with school projects and their deadlines are close to each other. So my life is kind of jammed! I hate it! Well, I guess I'm gonna talk about my school life again, knowing that some of you might find it boring or its the same bloody old damn thing over and over again. Well, people, nothing is gonna stop me. So beat it!
In one of my subjects - It shall not be named. We had to do a report on a topic of our choice. BUT one of my group member, let's call the person "F" has really got into my nerves beyond my tolerance level. At one point of our meeting, I was given the task to type out our survey. I made a mistake. I didn't noticed it. Until one day during class, F asked me "Rina, did you typed according to the darft?" I said "yes." F then told me the mistake that I made and said this to me, " Next time, pay attention during the meetings." (Something like that, I can't remember the exact words.) I was totally shocked and angry at F for confronting the group abruptly. Later than I found out from my other frens that F had a bad mood over something that was broken. So, F had to somehow vent the anger at the group. Cool Huh?!
From then on, whenver we had a meeting, I kept my distance from F and be of no trouble to the group. Actually, whenever there's meeting, it seems that my 3 other frens and I were left astray. F were doing most of the work. SO, the 4 of us decided to be the follower and just agree to the things that F says since whatever ideas we contributed, F will find a way to say it's wrong, or change the whole thing. F wants to do everything! I find that F is a one-man show kind of thing. THAT! Really hit my nerves. My work was not even taken to consideration at all! Let alone my other members. So much for calling this a group work. I hate it! I can't stand F!!! Right now, F doesn't even interact with me. So selfish.
However, this time round, we are stuck together as a group again to do the final project. This time, I am not making this an issue for me anymore because I rather choose not to be bothered about this childish thing. From now on, I will be myself and not be bothered about what my classmates think of me. I've had enough of it.
If ever F or any one of my classmates happen to read this and somehow F finds out, all I want to say is this, "I don't care what you think of me. I feel that whatever you did to the group was not neccessary and also it was hurtful. You should have confronted in a more democratic way and not to hurt people's feelings. We are students, we tend to make misktakes. Learn to loosen up a little, don't be too serious ALL the time. You got to have balance in both work and joke time."
There. I thought I'd be upfront about it. It has been affecting me for the past few weeks, and I'm stupid enough to brood over it, keep blaming myself for making that one stupid mistake and cracking my brain to try and fit in. Another silly mistake. Hai.... But right now, I'm Ok. I'm still trying to cope with this group. Ironically, I have no problems with my other subjects group members. Hehe!!
By the way, exams are coming and I have not started studying and I'm hoping very hard that I will PASS ALL MY EXAMS!! Goodnight!
