I had a bad tummy ache this morning. Eeew..! I'm feeling much better right now. Phew! I have paid the fees for my intake of O Level at any Sing Post. this time I really have to make this all worth while. God, please help me. Thanks. I also have accepted the offer given by the ITE for Sport Management. I hope that I can go into it. Tonight will be the premiere of the new season of The OC!!!!! Yea!!! Adam Brody is getting more and more cute!!!!! hahaha!!!! the storyline is getting more and more exciting.
Yesterday, I went for the SYF Rehearsal at Singapore Conference Hall. Well, it went well. We had Mcdonalds for dinner. Cool. Out of all the 4 schools, the most well-disciplined one was St. Teresa Convent. The most sporting and good was St. Anthony's Convent. The Most Blurr and stubborn was Macpherson!!! And the most 'over-the-top' was Raffles Girls'. Yea. I am not shy to say that Macpherson was the most blurr. Well, it's because, all the angklung players were acting as if it was their 1st time playing angklung. I was so embarrassed!!! Then they were also so stubborn because they refuse to stretch their note long enough for the next note comes in!!! I hate it so much when Miss Faridah have been saying this so many times until her mouth foamed!!! I will not let this happen on SYF!!!! Just you all wait and see!!!
I just had to write in again. A few minutes ago, I had a mild choke. Then I got to knoe from my mother that one of my cousin, he just passed away. He's an obese person. He had breathing difficulties in the toilet and then when his fiancee came, she found him lying dead on the toilet floor. I feel really sad for him. When my mother told me about this news, she told me that that's the reason why she doesn't allow me to go out alone and come back late at night. She was so afraid untill she asked me whether I ever had any breathing difficulties. Well, of not!!! Thank GOd for that. Really. This also means that, my brother and father have all the chance in the world to scold me as much as they want to make me lose weight. Right now, they have the best excuse to use when scolding me. Well, it's not like I don't want to lose weight. Of Course I would Love to lose all these fats, that's my lifetime achievement that I am still waiting to achieve. This news really scared me to death!! This is so freaky. I just hope that this is a good lesson for me to lose my weight even more.
Happy holidays everyone!! Although it's only a Saturday, but it's still a long weekend rite?! Anyway, I received an SMS from my best friend. In the SMS, says that I should not be too harsh on myself. You know what? He's probably right after all. I mean, look, what bygones be bygones right? And there's always room for some change in the course of my life. I can still be somebody but I have to take the long route instead of the 'high-way' as some people would call it. I feel so much better now after that SMS. Thanks! Now, I am feeling so bored at home. Yesterday, I was feeling so tired and told myself that I will stay at home to rest. But now, I am feeling so bored. I don't know what to do. Ah.........!!! I know what to do now. I will just clean my room which has been quite messy. I know it's such a bore to do this chore but it's fun! As in I will discover new things in my room that I never thought I knew I had them. HA! That will do the trick! Maybe in the evening, I will go to the 'PASAR MALAM' behind my block. YEA!!!! I can buy BURGER RAMLY!!! YEA....!!!!! BURGER RAMLY ROCKS Y'ALL!!!!
Happy holidays everyone!! Although it's only a Saturday, but it's still a long weekend rite?! Anyway, I received an SMS from my best friend. In the SMS, says that I should not be too harsh on myself. You know what? He's probably right after all. I mean, look, what bygones be bygones right? And there's always room for some change in the course of my life. I can still be somebody but I have to take the long route instead of the 'high-way' as some people would call it. I feel so much better now after that SMS. Thanks! Now, I am feeling so bored at home. Yesterday, I was feeling so tired and told myself that I will stay at home to rest. But now, I am feeling so bored. I don't know what to do. Ah.........!!! I know what to do now. I will just clean my room which has been quite messy. I know it's such a bore to do this chore but it's fun! As in I will discover new things in my room that I never thought I knew I had them. HA! That will do the trick! Maybe in the evening, I will go to the 'PASAR MALAM' behind my block. YEA!!!! I can buy BURGER RAMLY!!! YEA....!!!!! BURGER RAMLY ROCKS Y'ALL!!!!
I Feel Like Letting Go...
The more I am being asked to register for taking my Maths and Science again, the more I am reminded of my past. When I received my O Level results, it hit me really hard in the heart. No words can described how I felt on that day. It has been tormenting me since then. The more I think about it, the more it backfires on me. It's because my parents have to pay for all of the expenses. Plus, my brother is still in NUS and my father is not working. I really don't know what to do!!! Right now, I feel like crying although it's not like all my problems will be solved. But I just really need to this thing out of my head. I can't bottled it up anymore. Everyday when I look at my mother's face, it's different now. I know, she is very disappointed in me of my results. But she doesn't want to show it. She didn't scold me when she saw my results. But I know for sure that she was heart broken. I don't feel the same kind of love that I used to feel before. Nowadays, she often scolds me and she will just let me make my own decisions and not giving me advice. I feel like she has given up hope on me. I know I have shattered her dreams of me for making it to the Poly. I still remember last year when she told me that I have to get 15 points for my O Levels to go to Poly. I still remember her writing it down in a piece of paper and the look in her eyes were full of hopes. Her face just lit up with happiness. But I failed to do so. I am such a LOSER!! I really don't know what to do now. All I want right now is to turn back time and fulfill her dreams of me. I want to get 15 Points for my O Levels!! All I want to do is to make her happy and see the smile in her face again. I her to feel proud of me as her daughter. If only I could do that. Only then I will feel happy to see her happy. I really don't know what to do. Help me. I can't hold on much longer.
This morning, mother and I went to ITE Simei to appeal for the course offered by JAE. So, I ended up having Business Studies Administration at ITE Bishan. This afternoon for Angklung at Mac, as usual, practice. Finally, Eudora came. It's been a long time since I last seen her during Christmas. I think. ha! ha! Obviously someone was extremely happy and flatterred to see Eudora in school. Hint! Hint! After Angklung, Eudora, Angelia, Sharon and me went to have Prata. This time, Sharon and Angelia were extra crazy. They were laughing their lungs out practically at everything said and done. I really cannot say anything to them and make them stop laughing. It's their "After 5pm Syndrome", prescribed by Raveena. HA!HA!HA! At last, after so long I finally went to the library to borrow some books. YES! I finally reading some books. YAh! It's kinda too late to do this rite now. Argh!!! i just got a scolding from my mohter for not putting back the water bottles back in the fridge. Oops!! I did It again!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!! Anyway, sorry mom. I will not do it again....
Today is the posting for all JAE applications. I just checked mine. My application was successful. I am accepted in ITE Simei for Sports Management. Obviously, I will have to transfer courses because (A)- Look at me. Sport management and me? Does it ring a bell? (B)- What will I do after this? A P.E teacher? Hell No!! and (C)- I just applied for this just as long I can get into a school!! So, for now, I really thank God for letting me to be accepted in a school. Right now, I don't really care if I'm in ITE. So, what?! It doesn't mean that 'It's The End'!! I have nothing to hide and feel shy about. Yes, I know, I should have done better for my O's. But if this is what I get, then, I will just have to accept it. Maybe there's something better in store for me in the future. This also means that I have to really work hard and my ass off to really excel in ITE and do my O's again and then I will get into a Poly next year. I know it's a tough job to do, but I will do it no matter what. Just watch and learn people...!
ALL THANKS TO ANGELIA FOR HELPING ME SO MUCH..............!!!!!!
How's my blog skin? Nice....? Well, I kinda like it. But all the credits have to go to Angelia my Angklung junior. She helped me do so much. A grade C for my effort. Thanks Angelia!! My blog is in black is because the rest of the other blog skins are not my type and it's either too cartoony, or it has this music background that is so irritating. So, I have decided to choose this skin for my blog. Finally, a complete blogger. Thank You Angelia!!!
So far...so good..
I just came back from a wedding. very tired and very full from all the food served earlier.. oh god...Well, now I am very tired and sleepy..So far so good with my blogger except that my skin is still kind of boring..
First time...hope it works for good.
This is my first entry, although this has been the millointh time I have tried to create this blog. And now, I can't remember what is my sign-in name and my password. Shit! After reading all of my friends' blog, I am so amazed to how they create their blog page. Well, I certaintly will not have the time to do that and to know how to do it. To me, a blog is so-called my digital diary and it doesn't have to look so nicely decorated. As long as what is written down is interesting and it does not bore the reader. So, please excuse for the shortness of this entry. it will get longer definately.
